Poetism Commentary: “I’m Not Sorry”

The poem in question: I’m Not Sorry

I wrote this poem, and at least one other, during a class at BYU: HEPE 129 (it’s pronounced “heppie”).  I believe it was called “Fitness and Lifestyle Management,” though that may have changed in the 20 years since I was there.  It was a class I took for P.E. credit, because I was, and am, adverse to actual physical education.

My then-girlfriend was also in the class, and I would often find ways not to pay as much attention as I should.  One time a friend of my girlfriend was talking to me and I said something about doing something “metaphorically.”  Confused, she asked if I meant “metaphysically,” and my girlfriend rolled her eyes and responded, “No, he definitely means metaphorically.”  I have no recollection of any other part of the conversation.

Anyway, one day during class I jotted down “I’m Not Sorry.”  It doesn’t have any particular personal meaning that I recall; I just thought it would be funny.  I guess it’s obstensibly about someone getting out of a bad relationship.

The lyrical style is inspired by They Might Be Giants, probably their song “Hey Mr. DJ I Thought You Said We Had a Deal.”  At the time I must have been listening to TMBG a lot, as the back side of the page on which I wrote “I’m Not Sorry” contains the lyrics to “The End of the Tour,” which I maintain is one of their finest compositions.

For me, the dearth of punctuation in the poem emphasizes the flippant attitude of the speaker toward the person he is addressing; he can’t be bothered to dress it up for her.

There are some minor variations in the different versions I have.  The lines

Act like I haven’t even heard
And you’ll slam the phone down in my face

are sometimes written as

And act like I haven’t even heard
You’ll slam the phone down in my face

and

Appeal, appeal to my guilt sense
Entice me, you must think I’m dense

is sometimes written as

Appeal, you appeal to my guilt sense
Entice me, you must think I’m so dense

The last two lines as originally written are

I don’t wanna see you anymore
Because I already said I’m sorry once before.

Finally, here is an image of the original handwritten version:

Media Update January – August 2019

January

Movies

  • Aladdin
  • All-Star Superman
  • Back to the Future
  • Back to the Future Part II
  • Back to the Future Part III
  • Batman: Assault on Arkham
  • Batman: The Dark Knight Returns Part 1
  • Batman: The Dark Knight Returns Part 2
  • Batman: Gotham Knight
  • Batman: Under the Red Hood
  • Batman: Year One
  • Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog
  • Justice League: Crisis on Two Earths
  • Justice League: Doom
  • Justice League: Gods and Monsters
  • Justice League: The New Frontier
  • Logan
  • Mission: Impossible – Fallout
  • Pixar Short Films Collection Volume 3
  • Popstar: Never Stop Never Stopping
  • Superman: Doomsday
  • Superman: Unbound
  • Superman/Batman: Public Enemies
  • Superman/Batman: Apocalypse
  • Venom
  • The Wolverine
  • Wonder Woman
  • X-Men: Days of Future Past
  • X-Men: Apocalypse

TV

  • Angel – 8 episodes
  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine – 2 episodes

Video Games

  • Pokemon Let’s GO! Eevee

February

Movies

  • American Pie
  • Batman Ninja
  • Bill & Ted’s Excellent Adventure
  • Deadpool 2
  • The Death of Superman
  • Justice League vs. Teen Titans
  • Split
  • Teen Titans: The Judas Contract

TV

  • Angel – 14 episodes
  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine – 5 episodes
  • Cheers – 18 episodes
  • Firefly – 5 episodes
  • NYPD Blue – 37 episodes

March

Books

  • Ender’s Game

Movies

  • Captain Marvel
  • How to Train Your Dragon
  • How to Train Your Dragon 2
  • How to Train Your Dragon: The Hidden World
  • Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
  • Serenity
  • Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse
  • Unbreakable
  • Wreck-It Ralph
  • Ralph Breaks the Internet

TV

  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine – 4 episodes
  • Cheers – 36 episodes
  • Dollhouse – 3 episodes
  • Firefly – 8 episodes
  • NYPD Blue – 29 episodes
  • The Umbrella Academy – 10 episodes
  • Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt – 8 episodes

April

Movies

  • Aquaman
  • The Avengers
  • Avengers: Age of Ultron
  • Avengers: Infinity War
  • Avengers: Endgame
  • Batman Begins
  • The Cable Guy
  • Captain America: The First Avenger
  • Captain America: The Winter Soldier
  • Captain America: Civil War
  • Doctor Strange
  • Guardians of the Galaxy
  • Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2
  • The Incredible Hulk
  • The Incredibles
  • Incredibles 2
  • Iron Man
  • Iron Man 2
  • Iron Man 3
  • Thor
  • Thor: Ragnarok
  • The Truman Show
  • Wanted

TV

  • Arrested Development – 16 episodes
  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine – 4 episodes
  • Dollhouse – 23 episodes
  • NYPD Blue – 6 episodes
  • The Punisher – 13 episodes
  • Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt – 4 episodes

Video Games

  • The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild
  • Super Mario World

May

Movies

  • Ant-Man
  • Avengers: Endgame
  • Glass
  • Hot Rod
  • The Lion King
  • Spider-Man: Homecoming
  • Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse
  • Thor: The Dark World

TV

  • The Big Bang Theory – 24 episodes
  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine – 48 episodes
  • NYPD Blue – 56 episodes

Video Games

  • New Super Luigi U

June

Movies

  • Ant-Man and the Wasp
  • Black Panther
  • The Hunchback of Notre Dame
  • Justice League vs. The Fatal Five
  • The Princess Bride
  • Reign of the Supermen
  • Star Trek III: The Search for Spock
  • Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home
  • X-Men: Dark Phoenix

TV

  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine – 59 episodes
  • Going Postal – 2 episodes
  • Good Omens – 6 episodes
  • Jessica Jones – 13 episodes
  • Mad About You – 22 episodes
  • NYPD Blue – 4 episodes
  • Star Trek: Discovery – 14 episodes

Video Games

  • Cadence of Hyrule: Crypt of the Necrodancer

July

Books

  • The Light Fantastic

Movies

  • The Animatrix
  • Bandits
  • Captain Marvel
  • Crazy, Stupid, Love.
  • Hot Rod
  • The Matrix
  • The Matrix Reloaded
  • The Matrix Revolutions
  • Mission: Impossible
  • Spider-Man
  • Spider-Man 2
  • Spider-Man 3
  • Spider-Man: Far From Home
  • Star Trek V: The Final Frontier
  • Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country

TV

  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine – 26 episodes
  • Hogfather – 3 episodes
  • Iron Man: Armored Adventures – 2 episodes
  • NYPD Blue – 35 episodes

Video Games

  • The Legend of Zelda: A Link Between Worlds

August

Movies

  • Across the Universe
  • Avengers: Endgame
  • Big Trouble
  • The Bourne Identity
  • The Bourne Supremacy
  • The Bourne Ultimatum
  • Chain Reaction
  • The Dark Knight
  • The Dark Knight Rises
  • Detective Pikachu
  • Die Hard
  • Die Hard 2: Die Harder
  • Die Hard With a Vengeance
  • Easy A
  • Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone
  • Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
  • Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
  • Hook
  • Howl’s Moving Castle
  • The Italian Job
  • Jumanji
  • Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle
  • Knight and Day
  • Live Free or Die Hard
  • The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh
  • Popstar: Never Stop Never Stopping
  • The Princess and the Frog
  • Princess Mononoke
  • Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves
  • Salt
  • Shazam!
  • So I Married an Axe Murderer
  • Star Trek
  • Star Trek Into Darkness
  • Star Trek Beyond
  • The Three Musketeers
  • Waiting
  • Wayne’s World

TV

  • Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. – 13 episodes
  • NYPD Blue – 30 episodes

Goals for 2019

Books to Read

  • The Ender Quartet (Ender’s Game, Speaker for the Dead, Xenocide, Children of the Mind)
  • The First Formic War Trilogy (Earth Unaware, Earth Afire, Earth Awakens)
  • As many of the Discworld books as I can, particularly Raising Steam and The Shepherd’s Crown

TV Seasons to Watch

Haven’t seen before:

  • Cheers (seasons 10 – 11)
  • DuckTales (volume 4)
  • The Flintstones (seasons 2 – 6)
  • The Pebbles and Bamm-Bamm Show (season 1)

Have seen before, but haven’t yet watched my BDs/DVDs:

  • Angel (season 5)
  • Mad About You (season 7)
  • NYPD Blue (seasons 5 – 9)

Have seen before:

  • NYPD Blue (seasons 1 – 4, 10 – 12)
  • Pinky and the Brain (volumes 1 – 3)

Currently airing/will air this year:

  • Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (season 6)
  • Arrested Development (season 5)
  • The Big Bang Theory (season 12)
  • Brooklyn Nine-Nine (season 6)
  • Homeland (season 8)
  • Jessica Jones (season 3)
  • The Punisher (season 2)
  • Star Trek: Discovery (season 2)
  • Unbreakble Kimmy Schmidt (season 4)

Movies to Watch

From last year:

  • Aquaman
  • Ralph Breaks the Internet
  • Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse
  • Venom

From previous years, already seen or not:

  • Batman: Ninja
  • 007: Spectre
  • Deadpool 2
  • The Death of Superman
  • Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1
  • The Incredibles
  • Incredibles 2
  • The Journey of Natty Gann
  • Jumanji
  • Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle
  • Mission: Impossible
  • Mission: Impossible – Fallout
  • Pixar Short Films Collection Vol. 3
  • Star Trek Beyond
  • Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace
  • Star Wars Episode II: Attack of the Clones
  • Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith
  • Star Wars: Solo
  • Star Wars: Rogue One
  • Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope
  • Star Wars Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back
  • Star Wars Episode VI: Return of the Jedi
  • Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens
  • Star Wars Episode VIII: The Last Jedi
  • Teen Titans: The Judas Contract
  • The Wolverine
  • X-Men: Days of Future Past
  • X-Men: Apocalypse
  • Logan

New this year:

  • Avengers: Endgame
  • Batman: Hush
  • Captain Marvel
  • Frozen 2
  • How to Train Your Dragon: The Hidden World
  • Jumanji 3
  • Justice League vs. The Fatal Five
  • The LEGO Movie 2: The Second Part
  • The New Mutants
  • Reign of the Supermen
  • Shazam!
  • Spider-Man: Far From Home
  • Star Wars Episode IX: The Rise of Skywalker
  • Toy Story 4
  • X-Men: Dark Phoenix

BDs/DVDs I [try to] watch at least once a year:

  • The Avengers
  • Avengers: Age of Ultron
  • Avengers: Infinity War
  • Batman Begins
  • The Dark Knight
  • The Dark Knight Rises
  • The Bourne Identity
  • The Bourne Supremacy
  • The Bourne Ultimatum
  • Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog
  • Firefly
  • Serenity
  • (500) Days of Summer
  • The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
  • The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
  • The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
  • The Matrix
  • The Matrix Reloaded
  • The Matrix Revolutions
  • Scott Pilgrim vs. the World
  • Spider-Man
  • Spider-Man 2
  • Spider-Man 3
  • Superman Returns
  • The Truman Show

BDs/DVDs I [try to] watch at least once every other year:

  • Elf
  • The Fifth Element
  • The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey
  • The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug
  • The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies
  • The Muppet Christmas Carol
  • Star Trek
  • Star Trek Into Darkness
  • Wonder Woman

BDs/DVDs I haven’t watched since 2015 or before:

  • The Adventures of Ichabod and Mr. Toad
  • Aladdin
  • Back to the Future
  • Back to the Future Part II
  • Back to the Future Part III
  • Bandits
  • Batman
  • Batman Forever
  • Batman: Assault on Arkham
  • Batman: The Dark Knight Returns
  • Batman: Gotham Knight
  • Batman: Under the Red Hood
  • Beauty and the Beast
  • Bewitched
  • Big Hero 6
  • Big Trouble
  • 007: The Living Daylights
  • 007: License to Kill
  • 007: Goldeneye
  • 007: Tomorrow Never Dies
  • 007: The World Is Not Enough
  • 007: Die Another Day
  • 007: Casino Royale
  • 007: Quantum of Solace
  • 007: Skyfall
  • A Bug’s Life
  • The Cable Guy
  • Chain Reaction
  • Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs
  • Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs 2
  • Crazy, Stupid, Love.
  • Dinosaur
  • DuckTales the Movie: Treasure of the Lost Lamp
  • Dumb and Dumber
  • Dumbo
  • Easy A
  • Elektra
  • Fantasia
  • Fantasia 2000
  • 50 First Dates
  • Flight of the Navigator
  • Follow That Bird
  • Fun and Fancy Free
  • Ghostbusters
  • Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone
  • Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
  • Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
  • Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
  • Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
  • Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
  • Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2
  • Hercules
  • Home on the Range
  • Horton Hears a Who!
  • Hot Rod
  • Howl’s Moving Castle
  • How the Grinch Stole Christmas
  • How to Train Your Dragon
  • How to Train Your Dragon 2
  • The Hunchback of Notre Dame
  • I Am Legend
  • I, Robot
  • The Italian Job
  • Jonah: A VeggieTales Movie
  • The Jungle Book
  • Justice League: Crisis on Two Earths
  • Justice League: Doom
  • Justice League: The New Frontier
  • Kermit’s Swamp Years
  • Kiki’s Delivery Service
  • Knight and Day
  • The LEGO Movie
  • The Lion King
  • The Majestic
  • Maleficent
  • Mary Poppins
  • The Animatrix
  • Les Miserables
  • Mr. & Mrs. Smith
  • The Muppet Movie
  • The Muppets
  • Muppets Most Wanted
  • Mystery Men
  • National Treasure
  • National Treasure 2: Book of Secrets
  • 101 Dalmatians
  • Phineas and Ferb: Across the Second Dimension
  • Piglet’s Big Movie
  • The Pirates Who Don’t Do Anything
  • Pixar Short Films Collection Vol. 1
  • Pixar Short Films Collection Vol. 2
  • Pom Poko
  • Ponyo
  • Pooh’s Grand Adventure: The Search for Christopher Robin
  • Pooh’s Heffalump Movie
  • Porco Rosso
  • The Princess and the Frog
  • The Princess Bride
  • Princess Mononoke
  • Puss in Boots
  • Ratatouille
  • Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves
  • Salt
  • Shrek
  • Shrek 2
  • Shrek the Third
  • Shrek Forever After
  • So I Married an Axe Murderer
  • The Sorcerer’s Apprentice
  • Speed Racer
  • Star Trek III: The Search for Spock
  • Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home
  • Star Trek V: The Final Frontier
  • Star Trek VI: The Undiscovered Country
  • Stranger Than Fiction
  • Superman: The Movie
  • Superman II
  • Superman III
  • All-Star Superman
  • Superman: Doomsday
  • Superman/Batman: Public Enemies
  • Superman/Batman: Apocalypse
  • Superman: Unbound
  • Super Mario Bros.
  • Tales from Earthsea
  • Tangled
  • Tarzan
  • The Three Musketeers
  • Toy Story
  • Toy Story 2
  • Toy Story 3
  • The Transformers: The Movie
  • Treasure Planet
  • Up
  • WALL-E
  • Wayne’s World
  • The Wind Rises
  • Wonder Woman
  • Wreck-It Ralph

Video Games to Play

First-time Plays:

  • Crash Bandicoot (N-Sane Trilogy edition)
  • Crash Bandicoot 2 (N-Sane Trilogy edition)
  • Crash Bandicoot 3 (N-Sane Trilogy edition)
  • Pokemon Let’s GO! Eevee

Replays:

  • The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild

Other

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My favorite (and not) movies of 2018

Here included is the list of movies which fall into the dual categories of “favorite (and not),” and “I watched during 2018.”  Criteria also includes being released in 2018, or 2017 if I was too lazy to get to them until later on (and I can remember them well enough to say whether I liked them, and how much).  Order is, as always, ordered.

– My Favorites –

Avengers: Infinity War

I saw Infinity War three times at the theater.  The first was alone, so I could watch without anyone trying to talk to me during the show.  The second was the next day, with my family.  The third was for my son’s birthday.  Each time was great, and I can’t wait to see Avengers: Endgame in just a couple of weeks.

Deadpool 2

I was skeptical, but really liked Deadpool.  I liked Deadpool 2 more.  The focus on “family” was nice, and a-ha’s “Take on Me” is now nearly permanently stuck in my head, which I think everyone can agree is no bad thing.

Incredibles 2

As I recall, this year [2018] each of my children went to one movie with a parent, just the two of us (not counting Infinity War).  Incredibles 2 was the choice of my younger son, and while I don’t think it was as good as the original movie, we both enjoyed it greatly and had fun together.

Mission: Impossible – Fallout

My older son and I went to Fallout together.  I think we originally saw the trailer before Infinity War, and he immediately told me we had to see Fallout.  I am a fan of all of the Mission: Impossible movies except for the second one, and was glad to introduce him to them.  We watched 1, 3, 4, and 5 over the next couple of months, and we both loved Fallout.  When I watch a movie, I will get emotionally involved in the story and appreciate the action, but I don’t generally have physical reactions to, e.g. jump scares or plot reveals, etc.  There were several times in Fallout that had me on the edge of my seat, tensely awaiting the outcome of a scene.  It was probably my favorite entry in the series next to the original installment.

Plus, Superman’s missing mustache!

– Other movies I enjoyed –

Ant-Man and the Wasp

Paul Rudd is just fantastic in everything he is a part of.  That is all.

Black Panther

Black Panther was interesting to me.  It’s a movie that I probably would not have been interested in had it not been part of the Marvel Cinematic Universe, but that I am glad I saw.

Coco

From 2017.  Another pretty great Pixar entry.

Jumanji: Welcome to the Jungle

Also from 2017, somewhere near the end.  I liked the original Jumanji as a kid, and I still enjoy watching it from time to time.  I wasn’t really expecting much from Welcome to the Jungle, and was very pleasantly surprised.  I’ll definitely check out the third installment.

Solo: A Star Wars Story

We saw Solo because, well, it’s a Star Wars movie.  And it was better than it had any right to be.

– Movies that made me say, “meh” –

Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom

Jurassic World did not do it for me, and I was surprised at how much money it made at the box office.  The sequel did not do it for me even more.  I love me some Chris Pratt, so there’s that, but the original Jurassic Park will always be my favorite.

– Movies that made me say, “Why on earth did I watch this?” –

This category is empty this year.  I’m either getting lazier or more discerning.

– 2018 movies I haven’t seen yet that I hope are good, or at least not terrible (except that it’s April now and I’ve actually seen them but I’m still going to pretend I did this in January or whatever OK?) –

Aquaman

The current DCEU has had 3 terrible movies, 1 generally OK one, and 1 really good one.  I wonder where Aquaman will fall.  I hope at least generally OK.

Ralph Breaks the Internet

Wreck-It Ralph was a fun movie, and the sequel looks fun, as well.

Spider-Man: Into the Spider-Verse

This is getting great reviews, and as a Spidey fan I really should have seen it by now.  Alas.

Venom

I really don’t have any hope for this movie, but I got the disc from Netflix, so I guess I’ll get to it soon enough.

2018 Goals Update

How well did I do with my 2018 goals?  I’m going to say pretty terribly.  This was just kind of a crap year for that sort of thing, but I persevere with my reporting nonetheless.

Books to Read

Yeah, no.  Complete failure here.  2018 was supposed to be the year.  It was not.

TV Seasons to Watch

Haven’t seen before:

3 point something out of 5.  The Flintstones, as ever, remains unwatched, and I made it through 9 of 11 seasons of Cheers.

Have seen before, but haven’t yet watched my BDs/DVDs:

Let’s say 1.5/3.  I did Justice League Unlimited and one season of Mad About You.  I got a couple of seasons of NYPD Blue for Christmas so I’m going to try for those in 2019, along with the last season of MAY.

Have seen before:

I’ll say 3/5.  I got to show Buffy to my daughter for the first time this year, and it was so great (we also watched most of Angel).  NYPD Blue and Pinky and the Brain will be pushed back.

Currently airing/will air this year:

I got all but Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt.  The season was split up, with the last half airing in January 2019, so I’ll watch it all then.

Movies to Watch

From last year [2017]:

1/1.  This is probably the only category where I scored 100%.

From previous years, already seen or not:

(An impressive?) 23/24, only missing The Incredibles.

New this year:

Of those that count (the two non-Deadpool X-Men entries were pushed back to 2019), 9/13.  Aquaman, Spider-Man, Ralph Breaks the Internet, and Venom have to wait till 2019.

BDs/DVDs I [try to] watch at least once a year:

This category was a pretty big failure, at 7/24.  Generally I watch most of these during October, November, and December, but this year we had a) our family room not really movie-friendly for a good part of those months, as we were are redoing the flooring in it and our kitchen, and b) were mostly focused on Buffy and Angel, I only got to a few essentials, i.e. The Lord of the Rings, Scott Pilgrim, and (500) Days of Summer in December, with the Avengers movies earlier in the year before watching Infinity War.  My current plan is to watch the remaining films in January 2019, and watch the complete list again the the final months of the year.

BDs/DVDs I [try to] watch at least once every other year:

Here I fared better, only missing Star Trek and Star Trek Into Darkness.

BDs/DVDs I haven’t watched since 2014 or before:

I’m not sure if I even dare count.  There were 97 films in this category, and I watched 27, I think.  I tried to watch Ernest in the Army, but my DVD is no longer playable, apparently.  This will make for somewhat of a longer list in 2019.

Video Games to Play

First-time Plays:

I started all of these, and would consider having “finished” all but LEGO Marvel Super Heroes 2 (maybe I finished the main story? I don’t think so, though).  There’s still a lot of post-story content to do in Hyrule Warriors, and I probably have a lot of trophies left to earn in Mario Kart.  There’s some odds and ends left in Super Mario Odyssey, I’m sure, and I still need to fight the final boss in Spirit Tracks, I think.

Replays:

I definitely replayed The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild once I got a Nintendo Switch.  I did just about everything, including collecting all 900 Korok seeds.  I’m itching to play it again in 2019, though I’m not sure if I will try it in Master Mode or replay normal mode (I already did Master Mode in my 3rd playthrough on Wii U, and it was hard).

Other

Yeah, right.